Today Bryon and I are celebrating 29 years of marriage. I think back to all the things that we have been through, I am grateful for all of it. “Thank you” hardly seems to show my immense gratitude for him. Recently life seemed to be knocking me down with one thing after another. I began to shut down. My body was exhausted. Difficulty with sleeping began again. Racing thoughts followed. Panic attacks came in waves and I became edgy and irritable. I have a painful skin condition that is exasperated by stress. I needed to go back on meds again. Basically, I was unraveling and going down the “why me?” rabbit hole. Bryon recognized this behavior and jumped into action to do what he could to help me. Knowing that hot water soothes my painful skin condition he purchased me a small hot tub to use for these breakouts.
This morning I enjoyed a private soak outside in my little sanctuary that he also built for me. It is a beautiful deck with palm trees and flowers. The birds were singing beautifully. My loyal dog, Roscoe, stood guard while I enjoyed the moment of peace and tranquility while I sipped on my mushroom coffee. My life is as I always dreamed it would be. I have someone who loves me for me. He knows my imperfections and doesn't care. He has nursed me back to health countless times. He knew this is what I needed today. God knew I needed Bryon.
As someone who used to feel unworthy, this feels like winning the jackpot! No amount of money could make me feel like I do. I feel loved and understood wholly and completely. This feeling is only possible because of God. God opened my eyes to the beauty in this world. God gave me Bryon to help me through these challenges. I am grateful for each new day that we get to spend together. I wonder what my life would be like had I not met Bryon so many years ago. I shudder at the thought of him not being in my life. He comforts me like no one else that I have ever known. He is my safe space.
I am forever grateful to Bryon for jumping into action when I had my cardiac arrest. How do you thank someone for saving your life? Nothing seems to be adequate to express my deep gratitude for him. I’m sure I don’t express it as often as I should, but I think he knows. I hope he knows. I love my life today. I love our little family. I love my hubby after 29 years of marriage and pray for 29 more!
How do you nurture your relationships? How do you keep the spark alive? Drop me a comment and let me know.
Namaste.
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